And I Fall

If I ever knew you I couldn't have because
If this horror show is over then they'll side with us
I've never known a saint to loan me anywhere or when
If he is against us then victory is with us again

Look out past the rising sun
You'll see it set once more
I'm captured and free
My mind deceives me
Bed stricken and sore

I have not eaten for a week and I've forgotten how to sleep
I lie down and all my demons haunt and hide from me
I'm not used to all your cake so for God's sake can I
Wish you well and walk away and never speak again

Look out past the rising sun
You'll see it set once more
I'm captured and free
My mind deceives me
Tied down to the floor

I don't mean to be so mean but in all fairness, I
Burn my eyes so I won't cry whenever my time stalls
Come once more, once more before, I come to cry for you
I'm able without will, so forsaken, and I fall

Look out past the rising sun
You'll see it set once more
I'm captured and free
You won't deceive me
Don't need you no more

Written December, 1997
This song was written late at night after listening to a lot of Nirvana and after screwing around with my guitar a lot.